You.

My heart 

It has room

For two

But not when 

They’re anything 

Like you. 

Strength

I waited

For you

To cut me loose

Just so 

I could turn around 

Pretend like 

I don’t have a heart

So you’d think

I was strong

So you’d know 

Ill be better

With or without you

Such a contradiction

When your heart

Is broken

And heavy

With scars and struggles

Though all overcome

Strength was not

Holding onto pain

Holding onto a person

Strength was letting go

Letting it be

You can cut me loose

And come back 

With your glue

And tape

In the form of 

Broken promises 

And empty words

Because I thought strength 

Was letting you in

Allowing you to continue 

Your trial and error

Your Minimal effort

To piece us back together

Only for it to fall apart

But that’s not strength

Strength is accepting

That those pieces 

Just don’t belong together 

Letting go of

What coulda, shoulda, woulda

And accept what it is 

I wish.

And I wish I was sorry
That I don't know
How to stay away
But these interactions.
They're trying to figure out
Why we continue to cross
This line.

Perhaps its because
we refuse to allow others
To draw our boundaries.
How could something
Feel so right
If its wrong.

The uncertainty of
Something new
Something unbroken
Something strong
And although inconsistent
It doesn't quite shake
My insecurities like others did.

I wish I could take back
The mistakes we've made.
Cover our tracks.
Stop giving others peeks
At our reality,
Our world.
They're trying to figure out
Why we don't
Meet their expectations.

Perhaps its because
We know what's happening
To us, between us.
Why say whats already
Understand
Byyou and I .

This uncertainty of
Something unbroken
Something strong
And although inconsistent
Your reassurance heals
Like nostalgia from the past.

Because these interactions,
They bring out a side of me
I've been wishing
To find again.